im going to reproduce this as faithfully as i can, except for the last entry which i have already torn up and burned. this means that the replies of ms heng, who was one of the unfortunate to read this "pre-blog" at the time of its writing, will also be featured as best as i can. since these 5 entries are pretty dense, ill do it bit by bit, and you can come in and see the progress.

pre-blog start

Let's go Personal...

Main Characters of/in the Theatre of Life

Aaron, the depressed suicidal genetical mistake, who sometimes thinks too much about the meaning of life and yet cannot understand a two way relationship, which is leaving him aching!

Cheryl, the beautiful dancer who flits away from Aaron as often as she can (he thinks!) and holds a soft spot in his heart!

Michelle, Aaron's "da jie" and Cheryl's da jie. Knowledgeable about life in general and treading quite a same path as Aaron is now (she went to RGS, HCJC, GEP) and offers good advice on how to handle life, men's clothes, and sometimes, her sister!

Tengkok, High King of NArnia, is Aaron's thinking buddy in church. Together, they discuss about topics such as absolutism, evolution vs creation, and the personality of God. Killer at the flute. Aaron holds Tengkok in high regard!

April, Aaron's teacher-mentor, keeps Aaron in check and makes sure he doesn't attempt suicide (again!). Actually, she listens well and gives good advice. She is kind, caring, and looks better than Lucy Liu!

act one scene one

tuesday was bad. Very bad. thought about cheryl, couldn’t talk or meet, so that left me for dead. luckily michelle saved me by quoting this, or I would have fallen over the edge of sanity's boundaries:

"why so depressed, o my soul?
Why so downcast within me?
put your hope in the LORD
for i will yet praise Him
My Savior and my God"

its been a bumpy ride this week, stepping into the way of emotional streamrollers that flatten you flat to the ground. i wouldnt know what to do if michelle wasnt always there for me. she seems to have been through everything i have, even if she didnt, she sure has good advice.

trying to mantain 3 things. noting down of homework, doing it, and spending some time with God. sometimes you really dont feel like doing some but i push myself.

you know, tuesday was so bad i wanted to go see wendy chua about it? i think ill go see her sometime this week.

apart from getting my emotions run over by people and events and thoughts there really wasnt anything i could remember. when it hits you, it hits you hard, and if youre lovesick and dont know how to love, then you are gone.

michelle is going back to the US to study so im not sure if i could just survive this period. of course, theres always ICQ and we dont talk in person anyway, I would love a flesh-and blood- shoulder to cry on which is less than 2 hours away, if the need arises.

I suppose you would have heard about the movie by now, you can watch it on Mrs Yap's (Shaun) computer. We sent it for 2 competitions, we won consolation/merit in one, which is good, considering adults also participated in this one. The next one... oh... we're expecting to trash everyone upside-down.

By the way, the Cheryl in the movie, thats the one i'm talking about. Cool, huh?